Friday, April 18, 2014

Driving myself crazy

Never have 2 weeks felt so long. I think I might be losing my mind.

This month, we did an IUI. (basically artificial insemination). We were told this makes our chances of getting pregnant much higher. But it is not a guarantee. We have to wait two weeks to test to see if it worked. Its torture. Seriously.

But let me back up.  This whole ride has given me a crash course in Female anatomy (never mind that I took Women's biology at college). I am learning more then ever, because I am learning what happens when the body doesn't work the way it should.

In March I did a dye test to make sure my tubes were clear. Right one, check, all is good. Left side...not so much. Not sure why, or what is causing the blockage, but its there. So basically, I will only get pregnant when I ovulate on the right side/and lucky me...i ovulated on the left that month. Sigh. Big disappointment. But what could I do. Wait. I hate waiting.

April comes around, I do a round of clomid. Head to the DR and, good news, I am ovulating on the right. But there is only one follicle. It only takes one I  know, but I have a feeling my Dr was hoping for more then one to increase my chances of the IUI working. But she scheduled us for the following day for the IUI. I was beside my self all day.
After it was completed, i was told to test in two weeks. So...here we are. in the middle of it. and I am going CRAZY. 
I am over analyzing everything my body is doing. if I feel a cramp, I am freaking out...but it could be a sign of pregnancy or a sign of PMS. HOW IS A GIRL SUPPOSE TO DEAL WITH THAT! And there is way too much information on the internet. I have to force myself not to Google ever "symptom" that I have. Because basically, it could go either way. 

2 weeks doesn't seem that long. Until you are waiting to take a pregnancy test. Then...it feels like a life time.